My doctors visit was another let down again. Am I asking too much to be heard, to be supported? Fibromyalgia even though gaining more understanding, is vastly misunderstood and by most doctors not accepted.
My family doctor at my request several years back did the referral to the Chronic Complex Diseases Program here in my city and within two years I was accepted. Fast forward to a year ago, I was finally accepted in and after my initial visit with the internist, an 8 page report was sent to my family doctor. I was finally heard and understood and even better the horrible way I had been feeling for years had a name and a ton of information for me to read and become familiar with my new normal.
My initial visit with him did not go well, his exact words to me is “Do we really want to call it that, you’ll just get depressed?” He gave me a copy of the 8 page report and told me to go home and read it and make an appointment to see him in 2 weeks. Ummmm….HELLO? I was at the appointment, I know exactly what it says and this was specific instruction for how I could be supported by my GP.
Today was the absolute worst of the past year of appointments trying to get him on board. He will only focus on my mood, which has been down lately, mostly due to adjusting to how I feel and my illnesses. I’m totally and anxiety person, not much with depression but I’ve been showing signs of that over the past few months.
The CCDP in my visit last week gave me a prescription for LDN (Low Dose Naltrexone) common treatment for Fibro, but he out right refused to support giving me refills moving forward. He resents at all doing what is asked of the CCDP and just want me to take an SSRI.
My friend said this to me today, seems he does not believe in fibromyalgia and thinks you are mentally ill. OMG, shes’ right, I’m wasting my time, this will never go well or the way I need it to.
So today I’ve decided I will not go back to him, I just can’t, he makes me feel like I’m doing something wrong, like I’m imposing. He does not want to deal with me.
So now it’s time for me to take things in to my own hands and take the time to find someone who wants to support me. I don’t swear often but today was full of colorful words.